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2007-01-16 -- 8:56 p.m.

my throat is so damn sore i feel like cutting it off. argh. there goes my voice again. what's wrong with me man -.-

today was quite good, but my mood now has kinda gone down....

sometimes i think i need to stop. stop doing all these things that i know would only land myself in nothing else but hurt. yeah, it's stupid, but sometimes i just can't help it. i hate these few words but they're true. i wish i had more willpower and a stronger mind. it'd surely make things alot better. but all i can do now is pray, because i know there's no other way it can be achieved. i need His strength to carry me through. i dont understand why im always so lost when it comes to this, it might seem like i know lots but seriously, especially at times like this, im a total goner.

God, please make me stronger..